Hey baby. I miss you.

You probably didn't realise but I deleted you off my facebook and MSN. I'm guessing that it probably won't make a lot of difference anyway but I need to explain why I did that for.

You'd probably think that I wna cut off all ties with you. But you know what? I just wna stop obsessing. I've done enough of the psychotic ex-girlf and I'll give you space from now on. I know I can't do it by myself so I guess taking it away from me will make it easier to stop stalking.

I'll try not to bother you as much as possible like I won't text you about the random things that happened. I guess some things I see as caring makes you feel even more suffocated. I'm sorry I made you dread my texts. And I guess I need a break from all these as well; I'm only human and I'm tired too.

When I asked whether you're happier now, you said you feel more relaxed. You didn't answer my question but I'm guessing that you're better off now. And I'm happy for you.

I went for the conference on a women's worth today and they talked about the characteristics of a person who abuse:
-Obsessive jealousy
-Explosive temper
-Controlling
-Isolates victim from family & friends
-Denies the beating
-Lack of empathy
-Intimidating
-Lack of respect for authority

I think I exhibit like the 1st four and I guess it was really hard being with me. I'm truly sorry that I put you through so much shit.

I'm sorry I screwed up. But I love you and I always will. I know I'm not obligated to wait, but I still will. I'll wait till we're both ready to work things out together.

I hope this doesn't affect you for As. It's not supposed to. It's meant to clear the air between us.

All the best for As! I've absolute faith in you that you'll shine.

I love you.

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To other readers: I've moved but I probably won't be blogging very often since I'm tumblr-ing most of the time so yeah, I'll just shift there I guess.